29th March, 2025
#slice-o-life

Passion

The date on the last post was off, that's been corrected now.
I feel unmotivated to do most things. I wanna be someone who's creative, but I don't wanna actually engage in a creative process. This is obviously not possible, and I need to work on whether the answer is to find something I'm passionate about→ or to accept that the desire itself is unreasonable and let it go.

As often happens with depression, currently neither option seems sensible and I see no others. The will is there, the spark is there, but I have no logs to burn. I'm throwing sparks at nothing. I'm tired and cold. There is no fire.